Wednesday, September 9, 2009 Y
Zero90
Somehow as i think back in 6months,i felt that i did not have much motivation to study from shortly after semester 1 starts.I really wondered why i could'nt as during those ite time,i did have a boatload of it to do so,eventually going off to poly along wif 45% of the BCT cohort.But now i am barely keeping up in those poly modules.sigh.There are 2modules in the next semester that i had no problem catching up as i learned this before but still can't let my guard down,This 2 de grades must be on par with ppl like chin ping or esther,but for engineering maths,i will need alot of help le
Was it due to BGR?i can't be so sure.During the recent breakup i had during exam time,my motivation to study fell further,but i forced myself to study anyway due to the fact i dun wan fail.In the end,as what one says-You reap what you sow,i won't be surprised if i flunk 1module(2of the modules i know for sure can pass).Anyway,nothing can be done le right?Just had to do something for the new semester.And,i will never allow BGR to affect my studies liao from this next semester onwards and not disapoint anyone else.Enough.Once bitten,twice shy le.But where to find motivation?Easier said then done.i had to use my own one this time round.(Well i can only pray for the best)Hope i can have more motivation to study this next semester((:
For the BGR issue,i felt that there is nothing i can do about it(1.i lost all the feelings to her by now(You know who your are from NYP de) le and 2.She already made it so damn clear and obvious about it) and forget the past and start anew...
I told myself,this is already the past,let's look into the future bahx.No point keep thinking of the past.
Well in life,there are times when you had to make a difficult choice after all.One wrong step can ruin everything(As one goes)Think before you act.
Hope this applies to all my friends out there(: